May 5th, 2010 Hudson is off the Ventilator

The day has finally come, almost 2 weeks after his surgery and we are able to finally hold a baby instead of a load of tubes. It was a very rough day for Hudson since he got his wire test completed which was a brutal test that can’t feel good. They were basically trying to determine where his arrhythmias were coming from. So basically what this test did was jump start his little tiny heart to 200 beats per minute to see if he would have an arrhythmia and where it was coming from. Anyways it was horrible to watch and they couldn’t finish it fast enough, I hated watching it and because he was still intubated, when he cries there is no sound but his face is completely red and his mouth is open, it’s horrible to watch that. Anyways the test only lasted 10min but it felt like forever. Once it was complete they gave us results and it turns out he has an extra conductor on the outer right side of his heart between his atrium and ventricle. Chris still has a few questions about it though, he thinks the test may be flawed and the results are more inconclusive and their recommendation is more a precaution. Chris and I left soon after because Chris had to start work and Hudson was stable enough.
We came back to see him again at around 4:30 and were pleasantly relieved to see he no longer was on the ventilator and his arterial line was out as well and he was finally breathing on his own YEAY!!! finally. Of course I had to ask to hold him and it was great, I couldn’t wait any longer to hold my little angel. Finally he is in my arms. He was a little bit fuzzy but it’s been a rough day for him. I held him for about 1hr 30min and Chris wanted a turn so I let him HE!! I just wanted to squish him and cuddle forever, it was soo nice. I can’t wait until tomorrow after he has rested and I am able to hold him again. I am so thankful and so happy, it finally feels like we are moving forward. Thank you God for that, thank you.