Hudson’s Chest is finally closed

Hudson’s chest was finally closed because he’s dry and is no longer retaining the fluids from having surgery.
Really, it has only been 3 days since he had surgery, but both Chris and I were just impatient and eager to have his chest closed because it’s just one step closer to recovery and being able to hold him again. Also we are just relieved because when the chest is open it’s easier to catch an infection, but thankfully that won’t happen. So this was all done in the morning while we were at Southgate Alliance Church, we new it would be done in morning and they close the unit down to perform the procedure, so once church was over we headed to Stollery Hospital to see him. We managed to find an Alliance church close by and we were happy to be there, it was very much like our home church. It amazes me how this entire experience is bringing so many people together and it’s all God’s work really. They have a nursery for the little kids, so I decided to try and take Hayley down to play during the service and as it turns out the lady watching the kids in the nursery is a cardiologist and part of the team at Stollery and I started talking to her and told her how we had come to the church and why we were in Edmonton. Once I told her Hudson’s name she immediately knew who he was and that she had been following his echo scans when he gets them done. I mean WOW!!! Isn’t that totally God.

So once we got to see Hudson, he was starting to wake up a little bit and I started to talk to him and he started to wake up more and his eyes were wide open, couldn’t believe it, he is totally drugged up which breaks my heart really but he needs to be since he’s had major surgery. I was soo amazed at him trying to look around and stuff. The nurse had to up the dosage of morphine a bit to make him sleepy again. UGHH!!! I just want to hold my little guy, I try so hard to overlook all the machines, wires and tubes attached to him and just keep telling myself it’s only for a few more days and I will hold him again. When he was looking at me, my heart was melting, it’s like he wanted me to pick him up and hold him or maybe it’s just me wanting that so badly to comfort him and take away any pain he could be feeling, even though they reassure me he feels no pain at all.
I try so hard not to cry when I am in there to see him, but sometimes it’s so overwhelming. I don’t want to accidentally drop a tear on him. Soon my little brave boy, I will hold you and soon we will go home and soon we will go for walks and soon we will cuddle for nap times and soon you will be running around with Hayden and Hayley and they will protect you, they love you so much and cant’ wait to have you home. Hayden has already said he wants to share a room with you and play trains all day and Hayley, well she’ll probably want to put shoes on you all day, your sister is very girly when it comes to shoes. Daddy can’t wait to feed you a bottle and he wants all three of you to jump on him in the mornings to wake him up. We both can’t wait to be able to show you off and dedicate you in front of all our friends and family and show everyone how God has sustained us and blessed us immensely!