So Chris was nice enough to share my laptop with me before I go into super intense labour. Well what a day it has been. From the fact that I couldn’t sleep last night because there simply wasn’t a simple position that was comfortable and then to the fact that my water decided to break at around 1:30am this morning. To the fact that the kids decided to wake up almost 1hr earlier than usual. To the fact that I was still leaking fluid but wasn’t feeling any major contractions besides some cramping and just being plain uncomfortable all together.
Well we had a schedule Obstetrician appt at 11:00, so that was mainly what we wanted to target to do today, so I managed to get the kids some breakfast and head to the appt. I was already feeling uncomfortable, but it’s been like that for a few months already so it seems. Chris and I were not getting along just arguing and being short with each other and the kids. I feel so horrible, especially for Hayden because he understands a lot more of whats going on and can sense the tension and the stress that’s happening, probably isn’t sure of everything but knows something is sooo different.
So we managed to make the Obstetrician appt and it turns out that my water is broken and Dr. decided I needed to go to hospital right away and get induced so the contractions come faster. Both Chris and I were not in agreement to her recommendation to get induced, just because I rather things take their course. Anyways we decided to go back to the Ronald Mcdonald house to gather some phone numbers and some things and feed the kids. I first decided to call my Mom and tell her what’s happening and asked if there was anyway she would be able to come today sometime to help us out with the kids. She said she will look into it and call me back. Once we got back to the Ronald Mcdonald House, I decided to call her back and she had already booked her flight and said would be here by 10:45p.m. that was the earliest flight she could get. I am so thankful for my Mom, being a Mom myself I know I would do anything for my kids and that is what my Mom is doing, I can’t ever be thankful enough. Both Chris and I are blessed to come from amazing parents that love us so much. Anyways, just getting emotional about how much love I feel for my family. So I managed to gather lunch for everyone and Hayden was playing in the kitchen area and once I had made lunch for everyone, I told him we had to go to hospital. He told me he had pooped in his underwear and was hiding in a corner 🙁 I felt so bad, just because I am sure he did it because he’s nervous and going throough so much. He hasn’t had any accidents at all and has been doing amazing with potty training. One less thing I needed at that moment, but Oh well. One less underwear he will have now HE! Mommy wasn’t about to wash it right then and there Sorry. My poor little monkey UGHH!! If I could take the stress or anxiety he is feeling or both my kids are feeling I would, it’s so much for them.
Anyways, we managed to head to hospital and I packed enough snacks for them, so I had thought, but they soon started to get restless and I had no idea what we were going to do with them while I got some antibiotics and an IV put on. Chris was getting short with Hayden because he was getting restless. He’s a kid, he can’t be expected to stay still for hours at a time. Oh man I just want to scream and cry at the same time. I am so stressed at this point, my poor kids. I am mad at Chris because he’s not patient enough with them and it feels like he’s not really understanding me as a Mom and what I feel for my kids and going through a million emotions. I know he’s under a lot of stress too and trying to arrange something with the kids and I am scared of who will take care of the kids. Anyways, thankfully we have an amazing church family and Chris managed to contact some friends and they were able to have someone they know from here to help us out with the kids. Chris took them and met with them at the Ronald Mcdonald House. So that is where the kids are at right now and I just called to see how they are doing and Hayden keeps asking for me 🙁 🙁 Hayley is already asleep, so one less thing to worry about 🙁 Why do mom’s worry so much, now I understand why My Mom and Chris’s Mom always want to know how we are doing, even if it’s just a phone call.
Chris has assured me that the kids are in great hands and we are thankful for a great bunch of friends and their support through this challenging time. God is with us I know that, wish sometimes we didn’t forget that and get side tracked by emotions.
I don’t think baby is coming today, but maybe in the morning. Chris has to leave at 10pm for the evening so I am alone but at least he can relieve the babysitter.. .We are so thankful for everything and everyone that has helped… I have to sign off now cause Chris has to leave….
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