Friday April 9th, 2010

Today we have settled into our temporary home at the Ronald McDonald house. We were blessed to have been able to get in 3 days earlier than expected.  It’s nice to finally feel a bit more stable and settled in. We’ve managed to unpack our things and organize, which I find important in my life with two little kids. I especially wanted to have a place where the kids were settled just so my mind would be somewhat at ease when I went into labour.  I would rather not go into labour soon just because we don’t have anyone to watch the kids until the 15th of April, but at least here they would understand the situation and help us out with the kids, if it came down to that. I am hoping to go into labour at night time, while kids are sleeping and Grandma Torrens, Tia Age or the Segura Grandparents can watch them and when they wake up they would see a familiar face.  I think I worry about that a lot, what would happen with the kids when I go into labour?  I worry about that and everything about labour, I keep remembering what the pain was like when I had Hayley and I didn’t get any drugs and had to deliver her without drugs, it hurt HE! HE! LOTS!!
Also just thinking about when the baby comes out and if I will be able to hold him/her and for how long before they take him/her away to start the prostaglandin medication to keep the patent ductus open until surgery can be scheduled.  The drug somehow “tricks” the baby into thinking he/she is still in the womb.

Anyways, I am just glad we are settled in and the kids have a place to play. It will never be like Home but it’s a nice place. The house is huge, it has 30 rooms to accommodate 30 families and 6 very large kitchens with everything you can imagine for kitchen gadgets. We were assigned our our pantry space and our own fridge space and freezer. The basement of the house is full of games for the kids, it has a video arcade room and with Rock band of course, air hockey, a doll playhouse outside of the house with an outdoor playground.  There is even a room full of quilts that people have made and the kids got to pick one for themselves today.  It also has a weight room, which Chris say’s he will use, we shall see 😉 HE!! Even though is got all these cool things, Hayden said he wanted to go home, I think he was really tired today and wanted to be in his room 🙁 It made me sad a bit because he’s feeling all the changes and just wants to go back somewhere secure. Overall he is happy and I think he is enjoying having both Mommy and Daddy at all times.

I also got to quickly meet a Mom that is staying at the house with her little girl that is 6months old and has the exact same condition our baby (HLHS).  I briefly talked to her and she and her spouse have been here for almost 6months.  She had to go because baby was crying, but I am sure I will see her again tomorrow and she said she would have tons of information, her baby has already had the first and second surgeries, but might possibly need a heart transplant if I understood correctly. Hopefully I get to chat with her again and get more information.
This is her first child.  It seems like most people I have met that have a child with HLHS is their first child. I have to admit it kind of worries me because I won’t only have the baby to take care of, but also my other two little one’s.
I get a bit overwhelmed on that thought and I know the real challenge hasn’t really began, not until the baby is born. I pray for lots of strength and courage and faith that everything will be Ok with our little baby and that we will be able to cope with all the demands of all 3 kids.
38 weeks today and 2 more to go. Baby is strong and kicks lots and every night I feel like I am going into labour just cause the baby decides to kick me a lot, but it’s good because I know he/she is very active and strong already.

Well time for rest.